How can I get along with my parents?

Okay, first of all I'm the type of person who tries to love, but develops hate toward people very easily, and I feel like everybody in the world hates me. It's not my fault and I'm not that way by choice, it's just who I am. It's probably some sort of psycological disorder or something. Anyway, I'm 13 years old and I've lived with my parents my entire life. I mainly live with my mother because my father does demolition out of town. He comes home like once a month though. Anyway, I can not stand my mother. Now of course there are the little things that every mother does like making me brush my teeth and limiting my sugar conption, but I understand those things and I don't mind that she does them. However, she does certain things that I think most mothers shouldn't do. Whenever I do something wrong even by mistake, she yells at me, not to dicipline me, but out of pure anger. She takes out her frustration on me by shrieking at me in her awful voice. It's really damaged my nearves over the past 13 years. I also feel like she doesn't treat me like her child, but more like her husband or something. I don't feel her caring, loving vibe that I used to feel when I was little. I'm not even sure if she loves me anymore. I also think she sees me as nothing more than an annoyance. I don't think she sees me as her son, but more like a fly that won't leave, and all I do is annoy her. Not love, talk to, care about, or matter...just annoy. I'm afraid that's all she thinks I am. She constantly yells at me every day even when I don't do anything. If I just talk to her about something she doesn't care about, she'll yell at me to shut up. I'm just sharing what's on my mind. She always corners me into having an outburst and gets mad at me for it. I try so god damn hard to keep my mouth shut but when she keeps on screaming and screaming and screaming and screaming and screaming and screaming and screaming and SCREAMING at me I can't ****** control myself. She's given me nearvous breakdowns and yelled at me and grounded me for having them. She also yells at me when I cry because she thinks that everything I do, (including crying,) is just to annoy her. If I have to let out a ******* scream or a few tears and sobs than I just ******* have to and she should not blame me for it. I JUST CAN'T HELP IT! IT CAN'T BE HELPED!!!! She also blames me for EVERY ******* THING. Who ate all the cookies? JUSTIN. Who lost the remote? JUSTIN. Who pissed on the toilet seat? JUSTIN. I DON'T CAUSE ALL OF HER ******* PROBLEMS BUT SHE ALWAYS ASSUMES I DO! We're two different people but we're both pretty messed up. She has anxiety and nearve problems and I understand that, but it's no excuse for everything she does to me. I've tried getting along with her and I will keep trying but I just hate her so ******* much. I want to get along with her and I want her to get along with me. If I don't get some help it will only get worse. I'll end up not being able to control myself and somebody is going to ******* get hurt. I'm not a bad person I just feel like I'm going to explode into a rage and do something I'll regret. Thank you if you took the time to read all of this if you actually did. Unless somebody like Dr. Phil reads this it will probably just go on until I move out (which I've already tried. I'm actually saving up for a hippie van so I can get away from my mom. I'm dead freaking searious.) Even If it doesn't help, your advice is still immensely appritiated. Thank you. Also, I know I may seem all big and bad and tough but I'm really very sensitive and troubled so please no mean answers. Thanks again...and sorry if I sound like a freak.